sighhhh feeling lousy. :( few reasons why im a lousy teacher. sigh.

1. too lenient with marking. i gave the kids damn high for assignments then in the end test, some of them get single digits out of 25. yeah true some didnt study la, but some of them really tried... gotta fix this, MUST. at least before i leave mans. didnt know my standards were so low... i thought i managed to teach them until quite high level alr! sigh thought too highly of myself. either that, or the other tchr's marking is really strict. maybe both. she really expects A LOT from them. booooo. i hope 4D & 4G wont die... please please please PRETTY PLEASE they are generally a more hardworking bunch with better attitude!!! :(

2. forgot today about this boy's make up test! ahhh i went home, totally forgetting that i was supposed to meet him. ahh sorry sorry manzzzz. :( :(

3. too accommodating. maybe cos i understand how the kids feel, like tired or sian, so i allow them to do a lot of things. like cancel remedial lesson for them, or let them watch short videos in between lessons, etc. but ok la i dont see the point in forcing them to listen when they're all burnt out and all restless/tired. and i think its fine to have short breaks in between lesson since its 1h 20min. and i also dont see the point in holding them back when im done with teaching whatever i wanna teach!

oh well, but henxin is really a mature boy! hahahaha proud of him. and glad to have students like him. can tell hes smart and hardworking. oh well i promised his class that before i leave i'll do mindmaps for all the chapters! omgosh thats like... chapter 1,2,3,4,7,8,9,10 OMGGGGGGGG. but its ok for them i'll do it. shall try to finish a few chapters during the CNY break!

man, the lengths i'd go to for the kids i love so much :D :D :D yayyyyyy! wendy asked me to go eat MOF with her at amk hub haahah since she lives in bishan. exciting! would totally want to meet up with the kids after i leave. LOL they told me to get approval to bring them out of sch to eat wendys the fast food. HAHA. aiyo i love them so much <3333

hopefully the week will get better :) feeling kinda sian & moody these few days. getting tiring to walk, or get down to do any work, or even just laugh. :/// but its okay! the kids keep me alive. :) <3!

so glad that im feeling better these few days. life at woodlands has been fine :)

ytd after sch i went dining hall and had a chat with some sec2 girls hahahah :) they're so nice and sweeeet! love them :) haha this girl told me 'Ms Leow tmr lunch again kay?' awwww touched! even tho food sucks but nvm! the ppl nice :)

lol this week kinda slack, i had so many chats! talked to sean, wilson and billie at dining hall on wed afternoon, after i cancelled remedial lesson lol... haha talking to the kids always make me end up having some culture shock HAHA. our sch and their sch, srsly quite diff! but i definitely appreciate the difference :) :)

ytd i smsed some of the sec4 kids to ask them to watch badminton today after school. exciting match! its against montford :O hopefully the kids win! quite a few of my students playing :) :)

yay today theres dinner with the cdancers :) havent seen them for so long :( :( :( and sunday URBAN-RURAL SPORE HIKE (ok not rly spore.... ohwell NVM!!) yay exciting! :)

the kids taught me to
1) take things a bit more lightly, take things in your stride. shrug it off, laugh it off, giggle it off.
2) be contented with whatever achievements (no matter how few) i have

they prob wont know how much i learnt from them, and how much they mean to me! <3

just had about an hour plus chat with 2 kids, after we finished our make up lesson. and i must say, i had quite a few takeaways!

i think we are all so caught up in our own world... we really only see one particular type and group of people, and we take so many things for granted. the kids here lead such a diff life from us, and their culture is so diff. its really interesting. they told me many many stories, and i just feel like my eyes just go bigger and bigger lol... but yes i accepted it although it was kinda unbelievable.

haha comparing them and our sch, i think ppl from our sch really kinda no life and really damn sad. like we kinda didnt really make the best of our childhood, like enjoy and play. not saying that we should neglect studies, but im thinking maybe we missed out on the most exciting and crazy part of growing up... oh well perhaps we enjoy ourselves in a diff way, i dont know.

those kids were sec2, and i really love the fact that they're so happy-go-lucky. like dont take things too seriously and just find enjoyment and every thing :) haha im not trying to say its good to not take things seriously - they still do their work and come for make up lessons, but maybe in other aspects of life.

i admire them hahaha, for being able to na2 de2 qi3 fang4 de2 qia4 for every thing! and see every thing as such a small matter. maybe taking things lightly is good some times :)

and they're jsut so straightforward really - not like us, who try to cover this up, cover that up, hide and pretend. all that acting.. is it really part of being intellectual or mature, i wonder. talking to them is good, and they're just so open and unafraid to hide anything. they jsut speak so freely its amazing and i just find them so damn lovable hahaha

on another note, im thinking maybe im not such a good teacher... i think i emotionally attach myself to some of the kids too much and i give them too many concessions whenever i pity them or feel xin1 tong4 for them (which may rly not be good for them...) and i also dunno when to be tolerant and when to scold... :/

whatever it is, im so glad to be able to learn so much from the kids. :) what a great experience really. :)